I am a very possessive kind of a person, not of things, not of belongings but of my dear ones. I always knew that marriage is a huge change and it will take away the most important person from my life... Though I was ready, but alas! i did not know I will keep missing that person so much, for so long...
My mother says you will also forget once you'll be married, i wonder how and i wish i do forget. He has taken care of me like a child, like a sister, like a friend and now suddenly he has stopped being even a friend let alone a brother!
He has a new set of people around him, new relationships to build, i understand that, but still somewhere I fail to justify his forgetting me. I know he cannot juggle between things, he has told me and I did pretend to understand it totally, but i don't :(
He thinks that I am an understanding adult! How has he forgotten how big a dumb I am!! Because it has always been him who guided me, always. Though I can for once understand that he is involved in his life, but I really fail to when I see him treating my younger cousins like he used to treat me!! I know I am elder sister of my cousins too but I don't know how to deal with sth that is inherent in me- possessiveness! I just can't see when he calls my cousin to crack a joke and not me, he pulls leg of my cousins and not mine! Please somebody tell me how to let go of this inherent problem that I have...
I wish I too get married soon, not because I want to but because I do not want to be hurt anymore. I know I am not the best of the sisters but he sure is the best brother! :)
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